kablag!

do not compare yourself to others. there will always be someone better than you, someone who earns much more than you do, someone who appears to be so much more happier than you are. learn to be content. set your goals, your dreams. go after them, then be satisfied.

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ive been toying with the idea of going back to pinas for a 5 day vacation. hubby thinks it ridiculous, boss said it might not be such a good idea considering the amount of days id be spending there, mom thinks i should just go, and i do not know what to do. the fare isnt so expensive but hubby and i are aiming to be residents here… ive to be here for 3 consecutive years for us to be able to apply. phoooey.

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songkran is almost here. [ive nothing on my mind but that] just felt like saying so. [for the nth time]

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stephanie and i got to chat again. she’s all grown-up now. i am dying to see her.

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ive been married for 2 years 3 months and 9 days now. everything is so chaotic, just as it should be. har har.

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lights off. shan is sleeping with us tonight. the only light in the room comes from my monitor. take it from theree

LSS: cause I’m the only one who’d walk across the fire for you

Today: Same old, same old. I guess it’s most boring and unbearable when it’s only a few days before a holiday. It’s songkran next week, sot that’s more or less 3-4 days of rest.

I’m at home now but will be going back to school for my 6:30-8 pm class.

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Some things and feelings just never go away. That when you are visited by a certain memory, you live the whole incident in a tiny space in your head. And whatever happens in that space fills your whole being with an emotion so overwhelming that you actually need a second to get a way from it all and recollect you thoughts. A second to remind you that it, afterall, is just a memory.

I’ve been spending too much time in that space, I just need to breakaway.

But I guess I’d still want to remember. However haunting and hurtful the past was, I admit that I never want to forget.

So to you……

Don’t think, not for one minute, that I have forgotten……

I’m just taking a well-deserved break.